In less than a week I will finish my Obgyn duties (after 23 years) at Kaweah Delta Hospital and in less than a month I will be off to Saipan for 6-12 months to continue with my next chapter delivering healthcare and rediscovering myself (EEK!).

I finished my duties without great fanfare except in my heart and soul…thinking of my father and all we left unsaid…thinking of my children hoping I haven’t left a lot unsaid to them but still feeling the guilt of having given so much time and energy to my work and wondering if I had been a good father. Leaving to another country half a world away… was I continuing on same path being a less than perfect father a little selfish. Ah, the existential angst but have committed. So guess, I’ll have to see whether it’s the right thing or I’ll be abandon. I don’t think that will happen. It will be just a new version of the relationships and love.

Final packing going well still have a hard time purring my head around it but harken back to my family’s past adventures and my travels it all seemed to work out!